I am accused of being a perfectionist. A lot. I am not perfectionist. I have certain ways I like things done, yes. I will admit to messing up and not being perfect. I messed up at work the other day. Nothing significant. I had someone bring something in, that I later found access to get the information. But I had never heard of this employer, so I had no clue they were on a system we get reports from. My coworker said "It's okay not to be perfect" I just laughed and I was like "I know"At home, I am not a perfectionist at all. I do like things my way, but with three kids, nothing stays my way for long. I'm going for good enough. Good enough Mom!
I try to be a perfectionist with my school, but Chemistry has brought that to a screeching halt. This is now the only class I have standing between myself and my Masters degree. It's frustrating. Every other class I have breezed through. My high stakes exam...nailed it. But Chemistry......fail.
In Roller Derby, I am getting frustrated with myself. I feel like I could be better, but I hit a speed bump a little while back. It has kicked my confidence a little. Little things have kicked my confidence. But, after a conversation last night, I feel like I can work back to being better. I never really lost the ability, it was my brain telling me I suck.
I think what I am trying to say is that I want to be a good enough person. I don't have to be perfect, but I don't want to suck at life either.
So I'm just going to go with this....
Gee, you did a great job with this, and I feel like I have to write about something else this week. ;) I think it was Jerry Garcia who said "Practice doesn't make perfect, but it makes you better than you were."
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jerry. :)
DeleteAnd thank you.
So true! We all do the best we could and try to be perfect.
ReplyDeletePerfectly Imperfect fits almost everyone!
DeleteI readily admit I am not a perfect person and mostly I'm cool with that. But sometimes I would like to be better at say, keeping house! Roller Derby? Masters Degree? You sound like a very busy person!
ReplyDeleteThis weekend I have nothing planned. I am excited not to be a busy person! Maybe get things done around the home.
DeleteThe description "perfectionist" in no way implies someone is perfect in all things: it actually describes a tendency to like certain things done in a certain manner and asking, even requiring others to do those same certain things the way you prefer. For example: I'm a perfectionist when it comes to how a pie or cake is cut: they MUST be cut into neat slices first, then served---seeing someone whack into a pie or cake and grab a slice without cutting first drives me crazy. It's the "drive me crazy" feel about certain things not being done a certain way that is the mark of a perfectionist. It's a highly misunderstood word. There's another less flattering word for it as well.
ReplyDeleteI'm a perfectionist at work for sure! A lot of things drive me up a wall because they aren't done correctly or my way. I'm sure others (not in my immediate office) call me that unflattering word. :)
DeleteThe mere desire to "be a good enough person" makes me pretty darned sure you have already surpassed your goal!
ReplyDeleteI really hope so. :)
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